There are quite a few people in this world that think I took the easy way out when it comes to losing some of the 250+ pounds I had to lose. I have to say, I got enormous over the last two years. After Scott died, I comfy ate. Go figure. It took three years for me to find insurance that would actually cover the procedure.
I decided I owed it to Jeff to become a mommy that didn't have to use a cane, puff like a freight train when she walked and couldn't stand up for more than 45 seconds.
I once went through the Diet Center's program and lost the same amount of weight I've lost through RNY. I gained that weight back plus some. I once went on the SlimFast diet and lost the same amount of weight I've lost through RNY. I gained that weight back plus some. I once got pregnant and lost the same amount of weight (via morning sickness that lasted my entire pregnancy) the same amount of weight I've lost through RNY.
The difference? Well, when I was on those diets, I constantly thought about food. I was constantly hungry. When I failed at those diets, I binge ate. With my RNY, I'm not hungry. I simply can't binge eat. The weight loss *IS* easy, the route I take to the weight loss isn't. I don't tolerate any artificial sweetener well. They all make me ill in some form. Sugar also makes me ill if I eat too much. I'm soy allergic and winding up with pulmonary edema from an allergic reaction is reason enough to be a soy nazi. My WLS has its trials but in the long run (Yeah, right, I'm only 4 months out) I believe this is the one that will stick with me.
Or I could just be talking out of my ass.
There are no easy solutions, I guess.
All I was looking for with this surgery is a life where a Lean Cuisine would fill me up....now I find out they are loaded with soy protein. Does that qualify as irony?
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